Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Listen, like the one being taught...

I have been in a Bible Study at church called Discerning the Voice of God. One day one of our homework assignments was to meditate on Isaiah 50:4-5. The words lept of the page, and God gave me devotion to share with a group of about 50 or so women, which was very out of my comfort zone, but God used me to share His words. This is what I shared with them. I hope it blesses you.

Isaiah 50:4
The Sovereign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning. Wakens my ear to listen like the one being taught.

In my life, Ryland, my 2 year old son, is "the one being taught," and interestingly enough, he is being taught to listen. Ryland has hearing loss. We were given a diagnosis and less than one month later he was being fitted for a set of hearing aids, which he received 2 days before his 1st birthday. He looked so adorable in his blue and red hearing aids, Avalanche colors, of course. His face lit up as he could suddenly hear sounds and voices clearer than ever before, and some sounds for the very first time.

Then, began the hard work. Ryland had to learn how to listen to the sounds he could now hear. We as parents had to pay attention to his response to sound and recognize when he noticed a new sound so that we could tell him what it was. He would turn to look at the sound of the water running in the sink. On and off I would turn it so that he could learn, that’s what water sounds like. He would hear the sound of an airplane flying overhead and look and point as I would say “Yes, I hear the airplane, too!”

We began to pour language into Ryland, narrating our actions and labeling everything in sight so that Ryland would have a better understanding of the world around him. Soon, Ryland began to notice his need for his hearing aids. His cute groggy self would wake up from a nap, point and say “Ears” because he wanted to be able to hear.
But the piece that seemed to have the greatest impact, was the ability to communicate. Ryland, slowly but surely, began to tell us what he needed and wanted, but also began to understand our instructions. From the day to day, “Get your shoes” to “Slow down,” and “Be careful!” As he continues to grow, we continue to pour language into him and just delight in watching it spill out of his mouth, becoming clearer and clearer each day. With his new found ability to communicate, he also becomes very loud when he is excited. When he is talking about something he loves, he shouts! “Train!!! CHOOO CHOOO!!!”, for example. Some of his first words and sentences were, “Hi Mama! Uh oh! Help! And I’m hungry!” Nothing however is as precious as hearing him say, “I love you!”

I began to think about how parallel Ryland's learing to listen with his physical ears is parallel to how we need to learn to listen to the voice of God. 1st we had to recognize our problem, and get fitted with ears to hear God’s voice. Next we have to get used to the new sounds around us, and tune into things we may not have heard before, allowing God to make sense of them for us. As we allow God to speak into our lives, everything around us becomes a little bit clearer. Then, slowly but surely, we learn how to communicate freely, openly and clearly with God.

May God’s words spill out of our mouths, as we are given an instructed tongue, like the scripture suggests, "to be able to know the word that sustains the weary."

May our communication with God become clearer and clearer as we listen to his instructions and learn to speak to him. May we move from prayers like “Hi God! Uh oh, help, I’m hungry” to “I love you”.

May our praises to him become louder and louder as we learn more about him and our excitement grows.

May we wake up each and every morning, and point to our ears, ready and excited to hear God’s voice.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

7 weeks already?

Well, the last 7 weeks have FLOWN by!! I can't belive how big Aubrey is getting and how well we are all adjusting to having a new precious one in our family.

Adelyn LOVES being a big sister. She is so very helpful. She loves that Aubrey is a girl, and likes to help me pick out clothes for her to wear, and likes to hold her and give her a pacifier if she is crying. She is loving preschool and making lots of friends. She is the social butterfly of the family, for sure. She is learning so much at Cubbies, also. I love to hear her questions about God, and I love to hear her sing worship songs. One of her favorites right now is I Will Follow, by Chris Tomlin.

Ryland is so sweet and has now added "Baby Aubrey" to his ever expanding vocabulary. He is feeling a little bit lost in the shuffle I think, as we are busy taking care of Aubrey, but he is pretty mellow and will play with his toy train for the longest time. "CHOOOOO CHOOOO!" He will be two this coming Sunday and growing like a weed. He keeps us laughing, for sure. The other day he was trying to drink his peanut butter bagel through a straw... he is so silly. We also laugh because when he gets excited he gets LOUD! We regularly have to tell him to be a little quieter... COW!!! MOOOOOOOOOO!!! Oh, it's so funny.

Aubrey is growing SO fast. She is a pleasure to have around. Unfortunately, nursing did not work out. I gave it 6 weeks, and we weren't making any progress, so she is now on bottles. It was a little dissappointing at first, because I was sure I was a nursing pro! Heck, I had done it for 2 years of my life! But I feel okay about it, because she is thriving and that is what is important. We had her follow up appointment at Cardiology today and got great news. After and Echocardiogram and EKG, it seems as though her Stenosis of the Pulomonary vaulve is improving. The Dr. told me today that she expects her to continue on this trend, and that there will probably never be need for intervention. If there was a need at some point in the future, it would NOT require surgery, which eased my mind greatly. It would just be a Cath-Lab procedure. We are going to recheck her in 3 months, but we expect that she will be doing great!

I am adjusting to being a mommy of 3 pretty well. Some days are harder than others, but we are getting through it, okay! I am excited about what the future holds for our family having 3 little precious ones so close together. One of the highlights of my week, though, is my little break at Choir on Wednesday nights. Aubrey goes with me, and she has already been a blessing to many, but just being there. One friend in particular was blessed to tears as she held my precious baby. I love that Aubrey was a surprise blessing to us, and just continues to be a blessing to us and to others. I have been given a new perspective on how the Lord loves us through others, and through his (sometimes seemingly crazy) purposes.

Now, if it would just stop snowing, maybe we could get out of the house! ;)

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Aubrey Jane's Arrival

Aubrey Jane has been God's surprise from day one. On April 23rd 2010 Kyle and I were getting ready to go to one of our favorite restaurants, Gabriel's, in Sedalia to celebrate my 27th birthday. I hadn't been feeling very well for a couple of days and had a sneaking suspicion. However, we hadn't been expecting that I could get pregnant because I had not returned on my medication for hyperprolactinemia since nursing Ryland. We toasted with water that night. J

On December 23rd, 2010 we had the biggest surprise of all…

I had been hoping for weeks that the Dr. would agree to induce me one week early and even sent a pleading email, but at my appointment on Monday the 20th, he explained the benefits of waiting until "baby girl" came on her own or until her due date to induce. With Gestational Diabetes, there is a risk of a big baby, but also a risk of underdeveloped lungs. We wanted to make sure she was as healthy as could be. That day the Dr. stripped my membranes hoping it might send me into labor, but I was losing hope in having a baby before Christmas. But, Kyle decided to start his vacation and we spent a couple of days together as a family. We walked the zoo with a few other brave souls in the cold on Tuesday. On Wednesday we decided to try Letterboxing for the first time and did a very short walk at Columbine Open Space south of Castle Rock. For a few days I had been having some contractions that were painless, but noticeable. At our appointment on we were advised to time painful contractions at 3-5 minutes apart for 1 minute each before heading to the hospital. So, I continued on with my daily activities. I went to Choir rehearsal on Wednesday night and enjoyed seeing all my friends and worshipping. I joked about singing with them on Christmas Eve, because I was sure this baby was never going to come. I was sure I would have to wait until our planned induction on Sunday, the 26th. When I got home from Choir, Kyle's best friend Andy came over for a little while since he was only going to be in town for a couple of days. We ended up staying up until 1 am talking and catching up on life with each other. Andy was sure that baby girl would make her debut on the 23rd, Adelyn's birthday. I just rolled my eyes… this baby was NEVER going to come!

At around 4:15 am I woke up to a painful contraction. I went to the bathroom and then decided to start timing them, just in case this was the big moment. Thanks to my handy dandy phone app, I know I started timing contractions at 4:21am and timed the last one at 4:38am before waking Kyle up. We then took very quick showers, and I remember joking with Kyle to "make it snappy!" But, I wasn't really feeling like it was an emergency. Kyle began making phone calls at that point. He called our next door neighbors, Joel and Jenny, who had so graciously agreed to be on duty if it were to happen in the middle of the night to come over until one of the grandmas could get here. At 4:53 am I called my sister, Stephanie, to tell her it was baby time, so get ready and meet us at the hospital. She remembers asking if I thought she had time to take a shower and stuff and I thought of course she did! I had a contraction while on the phone with her and had to take a break talking, but was sort of like "well, anyway, meet us there when you can!" Then at 4:56, as Kyle was frantically knocking on the neighbors door (since they did not hear their phones) I called my mom and told her to come down. Of course she wanted details, and I told her I was having painful contractions about 3-5 minutes apart, and it was time! But I was not panicking I just knew it was time! Joel, who answered door, threw on some clothes and came running over. We jumped in the car, throwing in any last minute items, and were on the road. About that time, Kyle called his mom to come down as arranged to watch Ryland. She said she would be on her way as soon as possible. I texted my best friend Karin at 5:00 sharp to tell her we were heading to the hospital and I remember vividly that we had just gotten on I-25 at Founders Parkway. I also updated my Facebook status at 5:07 while sailing up the highway. I joked that being induced is way better. We both remember passing Sky Ridge, neither of us mentioning to each other, but wishing we could stop there. I was having contractions, fairly regularly, but I also remember asking if it was okay that I stopped timing them. Soon, the contractions were very intense, and I was needing to breathe through them. At some point, I even remember wondering if I would have time for an epidural, and wondering how on earth I was going to sit still for that.

I decided to turn on the radio to try to get my mind on something else. My most favorite song came on at that very moment, "To Know You" by Casting Crowns. I have had this as sort of a theme song for the last year or so. With everything we went through trying to sell the house, and processing the last days of my beautiful Aunt Jane, and everything I had been learning about God. The phrase "God is Good, and God is Enough" had become something I was clinging to daily, as God revealed himself to me on a daily basis through his provision, comfort and strength. The Lord was reaching down with the song to remind me that He was there and He was enough.

Click on this link to hear the song. Casting Crowns "To Know You"

Kyle was going VERY fast on I-25 and I kept saying "Don't get pulled over, or we will be screwed!" but, he kept on getting faster and faster. We even had a BMW trying to race us. Kyle says, the BMW lost, by the way. At about I-25 and Downing, my water broke. First a small amount but on the next contraction it gushed. I told Kyle and he said, "Well, that's just great!" knowing that this baby was coming. (Since, Adelyn was born within 30 minutes of my water breaking, and Ryland within 10 minutes.) But, like anyone would, we continued trying to get there. When we got off the highway at downing we both noticed the sign for Porter hospital and considered it, but still thought it would be better since we knew where we were going to get to St. Joes. But now, Kyle was running red lights on Downing and going much faster than he should've been. I had a very hard contraction, and Kyle asked if I was okay. I really couldn't answer because it was so intense. He looked over and saw me pulling down my pants and said, "What's going on?" I was so in the zone, that I couldn't even process and get the words out myself. "Is the baby coming?" He asked, just in time to see me scoop her up with my hands and place her, crying, on my chest. What happened during that contraction was so supernatural I'm not even sure I can explain it. I knew she was coming, and that I couldn't stop it. First I felt her head, and my body just pushed her body out. The second she started crying I knew she was okay. I felt so incredibly calm, and really not scared at all. I didn't have time to be scared, and I was comforted that the Lord was with us, guiding us. Kyle said "Oh my goodness! What should I do?" To which I responded calmly, "Pull over and call 911". We pulled over at 4th and Downing.

We are waiting to receive a recording of the 911 call, but from what we can recall it went something like this:
911: What’s your emergency?
Kyle: My wife just had a baby in the car.
911:Where are you?
Kyle: Just north of 4th on Downing Street.
911: Is the baby breathing?
Kyle: Yes.
911: Did the baby cry?
Kyle: Yes.
911: Find something to wipe off the baby’s mouth and nose, and to wrap it up in.
Kyle jumped in the back seat and found a fleece jacket of Ryland’s and a blanket that Adelyn had brought in the car a couple nights before when we had gone out to look at Christmas lights. We wiped off her mouth and nose and I wrapped her up.
I remember Kyle telling me to cover her head but not her face. At some point they asked if it was a boy or a girl and I remember double checking and being somewhat relieved that she was still a girl.
911: Now find a shoelace.
Kyle quickly jumped out of the car and took the lace right out of his own shoe, which it was a good thing he had laces on!
Kyle: Okay, I’ve got it now what?
911: Now tie off the umbilical cord at least 6 inches from the baby.

He did that, jumped back in and started blasting the heat to keep us warm, (which I had on cool air before because I was feeling hot from being in labor!) and asked if they knew how far the trucks were. About that time they pulled up behind us.

The fire truck arrived first, and the fire fighters jumped in the car to help us. They held oxygen near Aubrey's face and suctioned her mouth and nose. Soon the ambulance arrived and since Aubrey was still attached to me via umbilical cord, I held her and they helped me out of the car on to the gurney. I was slightly embarrassed and joked later about having to fully moon all the cute firefighters. They put us in the ambulance and started an IV on me and put a warmer on Aubrey. They officially clamped off the cord and Kyle got to cut the cord with a scalpel. We took the very short ride to the hospital (about 4-5 minutes). Kyle followed behind us in the now very mess van, and called Steph. She was a few minutes behind us, and she didn't believe him. The only way he could convince her of what really happened was by telling her Aubrey's name. As she was driving she had been praying for us. When we looked back at cell phone logs, Steph called me to check on me the very minute Aubrey was born, 5:25am. Kyle is pretty sure that she was actually born at Spear and Downing, which is over Cherry Creek… so, Aubrey was born "in a van, down by the river." J

We went through the emergency room, straight up to Labor and Delivery. The nurses and Doctors took care of us from there. Aubrey got cleaned up and warmed up, weighed and measured. She was a little cold, and it took a few minutes for her to warm up. But, soon, we were able to hold her and feed her. She was just perfect. The Dr. checked me out and delivered the placenta, but I was soon feeling a step up from pregnancy! J

Kyle told me in the midst of all of this that the news had been at the scene. We decided to turn it on to channel 7 and probably saw the first airing of the footage. I began to cry, as I couldn't believe that had just happened to me, and I was grateful that we were all fine. It was really quite crazy seeing ourselves on the news, and Kyle even heard himself on the radio on the way to get cell phone chargers, and a new pair of shoelaces.

Through all of this, we know that the Lord was glorified, and trust that His purpose in it all will be or has been fulfilled. In my heart I know that God is good, and God is enough.

1 Peter 2:2-3

Like newborn babies, crave spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Summer is nearly over??

Wow! I can't believe my last post was in June!! This summer has completely flown by! Here are the life updates...

Pregnancy is cruising on by, just like the summer! In the midst of it, I feel like each day goes slow, but when I look back, and look forward, I can't believe I am halfway through this pregnancy already!! We find out if we will be adding another boy or another girl to our family on Tuesday. We are so excited, and I can't wait to start planning,as well as start the process of coming up with a name. (Though, just like the other two, it will be a secret, no matter how hard you all try... ;) )

Our moving situation is... well, sort of at a standstill. Our initial buyers have taken their house of the market, so are now out of the picture. We are just keeping the house spotless and hoping for showings. It's been frustrating to hear wonderful feedback about our house that always comes with a "but..." The one good thing I can see about this whole showing process is that I have really learned that with a good routine, it is not that hard to keep the house clean! Kyle is a wonderful help with this, and I am SO thankful for him. Hopefully these good habits will continue on...we shall see :) We are not ready to give up on this journey quite yet. We have now lowered our price as low as we can go, and still be able to have this make any sense. We are still holding on to the promise that if this is God's will, he will work it all out. We are also hopeful because it looks like, (if we can sell our house) we will only have to move once!! Our house is nearing the point where they will halt construction until we get a contract, and once we have a contract, we can potentially set closing dates for the same day! That would be an answer to prayer in itself. The other thing we are praying for is that we will be able to close by September 30th and be eligible for the tax credit that was extended, which we were never expecting from the beginning. It would go a long way toward a fence and landscaping!! But, we shall see what God has in store.

Kyle has been blessed the last month or so with extra work which is keeping him busy, and helping make ends meet. We are so thankful for that. He has also been enjoying his Monday night golf league with his dad, and has played in a few other tournaments this summer.

Adelyn is starting preschool next week, which is so hard to believe. She is so ready, and is going to do great! She has been so funny lately about wanting to make friends with every little girl we see out and about. I am praying for her to meet a special little friend in preschool, someone for her to pretend with on the playground and sit next to at lunch. She is a good friend, and loves other kids so much.

Ryland is doing awesome!! He has really adjusted to, and almost seems to enjoy his hearing aids. He seems to be hearing everything, and is really starting to imitate, especially his crazy sister. We are now seeing a WONDERFUL speech therapist at University Hospital every other week. We had missed an appointment, so it had been a month since we saw her, and as we looked back at where he was a month ago, and where he is now, I was SO encouraged!! We have a long road ahead, but God has been good so far, and will see us through. He is still in PT for now. He has started taking quite a few independent steps, and is so proud of himself when he does. It will probably be a matter of only a few more weeks before he is choosing to walk over crawl. And then soon, I'm sure he will be running, and I'll be wondering why I ever wanted him to be on the go! :)

What I've come to discover through this crazy summer, through all of life experiences, being a mother, a wife and friend, is that all that matters in this life is Christ. A new spark has been lit in my heart, that I really cannot explain. It is so easy to get caught up in the stuff, the struggles of this life, and we've had our fair share this summer. I have a tendency to be "independent". I have always just wanted to do it myself. I've got it all under control. I always thought it is just easier to do it myself, and somewhat enjoy the challenge. But what I've come do learn lately, is that I have FAR too much on my plate to handle alone. As I've slowly relinquished control of things, I have so much more peace. Where I have found myself weak, God has filled in the gaps and then some. I am blown away. Lately, the song by Casting Crowns, To Know You has been speaking to me. Every time I listen a new line sticks out. But most obviously, is "To know you is to want to know you more." The more I know the Lord, the more I want to know him. I was given a verse in 2 Timothy that says: "For this reason, fan into flame the gift of God which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline." God has given me a little spark, a spark to want to grow and know Him. I want that spark to fan into flame, so that my life will be full of power, love and self-discipline. I pray that you will be given a spark today, to know Him if you don't already, or to want to know him more.

Thursday, June 3, 2010


Hello Friends and Family,
I hope your summer is starting off wonderfully!
This summer is proving to be a summer of change, and blessing. We have a lot of updates on life you won’t want to miss, so keep reading.
Our house:
Is still under a contingent contract with our buyers upon the sale of their house. We’ve renewed our contract with them once, And are waiting to see what pans out in the next week or so. Please keep us in prayer about that. It’s been tough to be in limbo, not knowing what’s in Store for us, or where we will be living in a month. We know that God’s got this, and are still excited about what He’s got up his sleeve. Our new house is coming along! They have finished framing, and will probably begin siding this week. We are still on schedule for a mid-August closing. We can’t wait! It’s been so much fun watching it go up. We drive by at least once a day to see what they are up to. Adelyn is quite into the process, also. She says, “ The men are building a house for us, right?” She likes to get out and go see what will eventually be our backyard. I think she is really starting to understand that we are going to move. Please continue to pray for a smooth transition for everyone.
Our Family:
IS GROWING!!! Yes, that’s right! We are expecting baby #3 in December. (Yet another Christmas baby in our family!!) It was a bit of a surprise to us, and it
has taken some getting used to. But we are coming around to the idea! We know God has a plan, and that he will give us everything we need to parent
3 beautiful children! Ryland will be 22 months, and Adelyn will turn 4 in December. We are going to have a VERY busy household. But, we are excited.
we plan to find out the gender in July, but the name will remain a secret, as always! I’ve tried to convince Kyle that we should let the gender be a surprise,
since we are prepared either way, but, he’s pretty sure we need to be able to know how to plan ahead! I am almost 11 weeks and feeling… pregnant. :) I have had morning sickness off and on… it seems to come in waves. But, I feel like my good days are becoming more frequent, so hopefully I will soon turn the corner, into the bliss of 2nd trimester. Please pray for a healthy pregnancy, and healthy baby.
Is as energetic as ever! She is working hard on not having any potty accidents for a whole month. If she fills up her calendar with stickers, she will get a Pillow Pet. She is very excited. So far we have gone a week and a half accident free. (This is a record!!) She is even staying dry for naps. I guess all it takes is the right motivation! Now, if we could find a good motivation for bedtime, we would be set! Please pray for her to know how much we love her, and how much God loves her.
Is still in physical therapy, but I am sure he will be graduating out of that very soon! As soon as he is walking he will be done with that. He is pretty close, just needs some confidence. I am ready to be done with PT, just to have one less appointment!! We are meeting with our CHIP (Colorado Home Intervention Program, for children who are Deaf or hard of hearing) Facilitator once a week. We are learning new ways to teach him language and have lots of “homework” to do for that. Our facilitator is wonderful, and we work together as a team really well. He seems to be using his hearing aids really well, and is turning into quite a noisy little boy!! Please pray for patience for us, and for his future audiology testing. He is at a very difficult age to test in a sound booth! His next appointment is Friday the 11th.

Ephesians 3:16-19

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. "

Thursday, April 22, 2010


This week, I am feeling so thankful!

I am thankful that we have a loving Savior who cares about the intimate details of our life. We have a God who holds our lives in the palm of His hands.
2 Peter 1:3 says:
"His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."

I am so thankful that the Lord has already given us EVERYTHING we need!!
I am thankful for doctors, hospitals and tests that ruled out anything life threatening last week when we spent the day in the ER with Kyle. I am thankful that he is okay, and that the Lord kept him safe when he was having such strange and painful symptoms while driving.

I am thankful for our dear sweet children. I am thankful for Adelyn's abundant, contagious Joy, and excitement for life. I am thankful for her precious prayers around the dinner table, and at bedtime, and for her desire to look for rainbows, no matter what the weather. I am thankful for Ryland and his ability to make us laugh with endless games of Peek-A-Boo (which are especially precious because he doesn't cover his eyes all the way ;)) I am thankful for the wonderful help we are receiving to teach him how to hear and to speak.

I am thankful for the representation of the Body of Christ to me last week. I am thankful for the many people who were praying (GO SOPRANOS!) the numerous phone calls, and meals that were sent our way. I was blessed beyond belief last week, by the generous outpouring of love and care on our little family.

2 Peter 1:2
Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.

Friday, April 9, 2010